I finally booked my first session. I was nervous and excited like I was going on a first date. I don’t know what it was, but butterflies filled my belly as I walked down the street. I knew this was going to be something special.
The class started the same way every class begins. The teacher asked who was new. I smiled shyly and let her know this was my first real-life class. Her eyes lit up. Again, my whole person filled with excitement and anticipation. We rubbed our hands together to get started and like I had learned from my videos, we tuned in.
The mantra to begin is always the same and it sets the tone for what we are doing and why this practice is so important. We start with “Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo”, this means ‘I bow to the creative wisdom, I bow to the Divne teacher within.’ That was the message that spoke to me. It wasn’t exactly Kundalini Yoga that was courting me, it was the divine wisdom inside of ME that was ready to come out. My authentic self, my spiritual self, my divine self. I wanted to break free and allow myself to shine, to live without fear. To heal.
The class took shape as it always does, poses, breath work, relaxation and meditation. By the end I could feel myself tingling from deep inside my soul to the energy outside my body. I don’t know how to describe it, it felt like fireworks shooting off of my body and landing in bliss.
My first real date with Kundalini, with a yogi in the flesh, I wasn’t just hooked, I was transformed. I felt radiant, I felt giggly, I felt beautiful. There was an inner shine that I hadn’t experienced before and I wanted more. There were no fears, no commitment issues, just the knowledge that something inside me changed. I found something that understood me, something that made my soul smile, I was addicted, in love, and inspired. I realized that this was my new life partner. No wonder I had butterflies.
Now all I can do is graciously thank Cosmic Flow Yoga and all of the beautiful humans that teach and attend classes. They have become family, helped me discover new facets of my love and deepen my practice. I thank and love each and every one of you.